Baby Joy After Grief

Photo: Noah Graham Photography

Photo: Noah Graham Photography

It’s time to expand the family (along with my waistline)!  My husband Jim and I are thrilled to be expecting baby 2 in the fall, but it hasn’t been an easy road to get to this point.
As many women out there know, miscarriages are tough. I blamed myself. What did I do wrong? Why did my body reject this baby? Will I ever have another healthy pregnancy?
My first happened on a flight from New York to Los Angeles. I will spare you all the details, but it was traumatic. I felt completely alone though I was surrounded by a crowd of fellow passengers. The pain was intense but the realization of what was happening was much more difficult to endure.
I am grateful both losses happened during the first trimester and that I had very capable doctors, including one ER doc who made me laugh so hard I thought either I was completely insane or that I had somehow found myself in a dream and we were taping an episode of “Scrubs”… traumatic event… hysteria, I suppose. :(   
It took me months before I could talk about it. I just could not even vocalize what had happened because I didn’t want to face the reality of it. I have found it healing, though, to share my story and have had so many other women respond with “I also had miscarriages. Here’s what happened…”
This pregnancy is much different from when I was expecting my daughter Kate. Because of my history, I am more on edge and constantly praying that everything goes smoothly. That said, there are many moments of humor and excitement. I plan to write about those too! Please feel free to share your stories and comments. I would love to hear from you! And to all the expectant mamas out there, we can do this! Together!

29 comments


  • Baby 2 Brooke Nancy in late November the 30th after Thanksgiving replacing Brooke is Nancy O’Dell from ET on The Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade on CBS with Kevin Frazier on November the 28th.

    October 25, 2013
  • Judy Miller

    My mother had four miscarriages between my brother and myself. She had to stay flat on her back in bed for nine months and couldn’t even get out of bed to go to the bathroom (she used a bedpan) in order to carry me. I have always known how much my mother loved me and haw bad I was wanted. Will be praying for a safe and normal pregnancy for you. Have missed you on ET.

    July 30, 2013
  • marilee

    congratulations missed you on ET . I’m sure all will go well this time lol

    July 09, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 24, 2013
    • Wondered where you’ve been and missed you on Entertainment Tonight. Im happy for you.Good luck to you with this pregnancy.I myself have had 6… 5 boys one girl..Use to say 5 devils and 1 angel lol Now have 13 grands and they are ALL angels …..

      June 26, 2013
  • [...] 35, announced on her website that she and husband Jim Walker are expecting in late November, writing: “It’s time to [...]

    June 24, 2013
  • [...] 35, announced on her website that she and husband Jim Walker are expecting in late November, writing: "It’s time to [...]

    June 24, 2013
  • [...] 35, announced on her website that she and husband Jim Walker are expecting in late November, writing: “It’s time to [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • Tiffines

    Katie I second your post. While it is nature’s way of removing something that isn’t right, it doesn’t change the way that 99% of women feel afterward.

    I too had 2 miscarriages and am due the middle of November with a baby boy. I too worry each and every day that something might go wrong but all testing has proven a healthy baby so far. I am doing what I can to stay positive.

    Brooke, good luck to you and your family.

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] can read all of Brooke’s blogs about her pregnancy on her blog, where she shares the struggles she faced on the road to this [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • nadia

    I hope all is well. I know exactly how you feel. I, myself had two miscariiages, but God has bless me with my daughter. Everything in life happens for a reason. If it was meant to be, it will be. Have faith and Hope.

    June 23, 2013
  • Best wishes Brooke. Your story is courageous

    June 23, 2013
    • Brooke Anderson

      Thanks Samina! And thanks to all on this board! Welcome!! xoxo

      July 03, 2013
  • [...] can read all of Brooke’s blogs about her pregnancy on her blog, where she shares the struggles she faced on the road to this [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] can read all of Brooke’s blogs about her pregnancy on her blog, where she shares the struggles she faced on the road to this [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] can read all of Brooke’s blogs about her pregnancy on her blog, where she shares the struggles she faced on the road to this [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • jamie

    Please, give me a break! If one has a miscarriage, that means nature took its course and that pregnancy was not meant to be. This business of taking the guilt trip is not necessary. Trust your body, it obviously has more sense than you do!

    June 23, 2013
    • Katie

      Jamie, please give ME a break! Have you had a miscarriage?? I have, very early on thank God. It’s traumatic at any stage, and you go through a grieving process like you have never known before, especially if the pregnancy was planned and did not come very easy! I even thought I was “over” mine and it wasn’t until MONTHS later that I realized I had still been grieving our loss. For you to leave such an insensitive remark when this woman is telling her personal story and going to be sharing her journey with us readers is disgusting. Her feelings of guilt and heartache and self doubt are COMPLETELY normal and for you dismiss them…well this blog is not something you should be reading then. I am 7 months pregnant now and STILL hold my breath every day and pray to God constantly that this little one is healthy eventhough my doctors assure me at each appointment that everything is going wonderful. Prayers to you and the little one, Brooke! I’m sure Kate will be an amazing big sister and I wish you 4 a lifetime of happiness together!

      June 23, 2013
    • Brooke Anderson

      Hi Jamie,
      My doctor actually discovered I had a health issue that was likely causing the miscarriages. And while I respect your opinion, this is a place for everyone to feel comfortable sharing and discussing their own experiences without judgment.
      Take care,
      Brooke

      July 03, 2013
  • Kelly

    I couldn’t relate anymore to your story. I had 2 miscarriages in a row when my son was 1.5. I’m now sitting here holding his 4 month old little brother. I had the same fears as you but it worked out for me and will for you too!! Best of luck to you and your family!!

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] can read all of Brooke’s blogs about her pregnancy on her blog, where she shares the struggles she faced on the road to this [...]

    June 23, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 22, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 22, 2013
  • [...] announced the news Friday on her website, saying she and husband Jim Walker are thrilled to be adding to their family. She joked that [...]

    June 22, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 22, 2013
  • Julie

    Congratulation Brooke Anderson on your pregnancy, praying and wishing all the best.

    June 22, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 22, 2013
  • [...] The Entertainment Tonight correspondent and her husband Jim Walker are expecting their second child in late November, Anderson announced Friday on her website. [...]

    June 22, 2013

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